I've been away for a while and although there are plenty of things I can write about like school or running or work I'm going to dedicate this post to someone of whom I am a very big fan of. I know she has at least a few (Milli) (sorry couldn't resist) other fans out there but I am certainly one of the biggest (don't mean physically). Any way I got a chance to see her the other day when I stopped by my Dad's house on the way home from work.She even caught me staring at her at one point. I was tripping out on her and she was trying to get used to my face with a beard on it so I guess we're even. Her personality is great. She's funny. I like how her voice raised the second time she asked my dad if he was going to the Convalescent home or when he and I were talking about something and I'm trying to pay attention to him and I can see her go straight into a dance routine. It's fun to witness the connection these two people have. A connection that at times I regret never having with my Dad the way you often hear a Father and Son should have. I made sure to tell the kids about these things she was doing when I got home. they look up to her. She's their favorite person to hang out with . I wonder if he regrets it too or more even or if he would even agree with that last sentence. I think it sucks that my sister and I never shared the "Brother and Sister" relationship either but it's not just because we grew up in two different households. Trust me that's makes no difference. I had 2 sisters in the house I did grow up in and look at us now. We don't even talk. Anyway maybe that just wasn't in the cards for any of us. I like where we are now, my relationship with my dad and my relationship with my sister. I hope the feeling of "somethings missing" goes away though. I 'd like to have that bond with my Son and Daughter but sometimes I find my self having too short a supply of patience (thanks Mom) to enjoy my kids and the things they likes to do. I need to be like Jim Carrey and say "Yes" more often I guess. Back to Diana though ....I kinda feel like one of those dead beat dads who finally comes around after years of ..well not coming around to jump on their kids band wagon when they become famous. (she's not that famous yet so I think there's still room) There's alot that I don't know about my sister but hopefully I'll get to learn (she's 22 so there's probably a lot she still doesn't know about herself yet either so I don't feel too bad)
OK I could probably go on but I think I've kissed her ass enough. So "Lady Di" congratulations on finishing college. Keep up the good work. You're a good egg.
Your Brother...... From another Mother sorry I couldn't resist that one either.It rhymed.
R2R0
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
My First Love
Almost 30 years, you and I, we go way back
So no matter who I'm with I'll slip away to find my way back
These memories are so clear they seem like just a day back
Like when my number used to start with a two five oh
Every time I'm up in you I feel alive...oh
Remember those times when I would sit out at night
My mom was out doing wrong but you made it all right
You would show me the skyline I would feel your concern &
You would keep me company 'til it was time to turn in
Or the times I would go down so I could see the real you
Bonnie & Alvarado fighting over who could feel you
You've had plenty of lovers and I wont be the last
Like guys who knew you as Eden.. we all have a past
In the blink of an eye time goes by too fast
Sometimes I wanna steal you but no I wont try to
Couldn't do it cuz so many love you just like I do.
There's no place like you, tell me I'm right sis
People who've met Echo Park know how I can write this
So no matter who I'm with I'll slip away to find my way back
These memories are so clear they seem like just a day back
Like when my number used to start with a two five oh
Every time I'm up in you I feel alive...oh
Remember those times when I would sit out at night
My mom was out doing wrong but you made it all right
You would show me the skyline I would feel your concern &
You would keep me company 'til it was time to turn in
Or the times I would go down so I could see the real you
Bonnie & Alvarado fighting over who could feel you
You've had plenty of lovers and I wont be the last
Like guys who knew you as Eden.. we all have a past
In the blink of an eye time goes by too fast
Sometimes I wanna steal you but no I wont try to
Couldn't do it cuz so many love you just like I do.
There's no place like you, tell me I'm right sis
People who've met Echo Park know how I can write this
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Restless
I'm at work right now but not "at work" right now.
Hey diana what were your plans for Saturday Night?
Do you have any? If it rains it'll suck and I guess the rooftop bar will be out of the question.
I'm also thinking of Old Town Pasadena as a back up. How does that sound to you guys? If you guys don't have plans already. Let me know. I'll buy you a drink for your birthday. Or you can just get drunk at grandpapas house and save me some money. There'll be plenty of Tequila at grandpas house but don't get into a fight there.
Laterz
Hey diana what were your plans for Saturday Night?
Do you have any? If it rains it'll suck and I guess the rooftop bar will be out of the question.
I'm also thinking of Old Town Pasadena as a back up. How does that sound to you guys? If you guys don't have plans already. Let me know. I'll buy you a drink for your birthday. Or you can just get drunk at grandpapas house and save me some money. There'll be plenty of Tequila at grandpas house but don't get into a fight there.
Laterz
Echo Park
Echo Park smile as summers swarm
over stucco- brown apartments
beaded like sweat.Lonely travelers
step out of torn screen doors
of the Paradise Motel and ride.
Carnival lights on a mud lot
beckon the street crawlers. The
amusements reach up to the sky
with colors splashing across the
night's palette in a silent brush.
Winitos crowd around the entrances
of the 24-hour Pioneer
Market, their crusted hands open
for change. Darla, la fea, accepts
change for back-of-the-alley favors
Echo Park's playground swells with children
who scramble around the swings,
and they swing and swing
while mothers on chipped benches
relate the nights and indecisions.
I've screamed here,made love here.
I've raced through the shadow of the trees,
While locos stalked the damp.
I've cried and laughed here - I once
held my daughter here who fell from the
monkey bars when I wasn't looking.
The lush of Echo Park calls to me.
Waits for me. Tells me lies.
And I believe them. Oh, take me back,
Echo Park, Merciless and naughty,
back to the dawn of guitar strings
and strained voices out of yawning windows.
Luis J. Rodriguez
over stucco- brown apartments
beaded like sweat.Lonely travelers
step out of torn screen doors
of the Paradise Motel and ride.
Carnival lights on a mud lot
beckon the street crawlers. The
amusements reach up to the sky
with colors splashing across the
night's palette in a silent brush.
Winitos crowd around the entrances
of the 24-hour Pioneer
Market, their crusted hands open
for change. Darla, la fea, accepts
change for back-of-the-alley favors
Echo Park's playground swells with children
who scramble around the swings,
and they swing and swing
while mothers on chipped benches
relate the nights and indecisions.
I've screamed here,made love here.
I've raced through the shadow of the trees,
While locos stalked the damp.
I've cried and laughed here - I once
held my daughter here who fell from the
monkey bars when I wasn't looking.
The lush of Echo Park calls to me.
Waits for me. Tells me lies.
And I believe them. Oh, take me back,
Echo Park, Merciless and naughty,
back to the dawn of guitar strings
and strained voices out of yawning windows.
Luis J. Rodriguez
Monday, February 9, 2009
Who you Are
So I'm still thinking of this tattoo I want to get. It's going to be my parents last names(one of which happens to be mine also) anyway the names are going to intersect and it's going to be in the shape of a cross "GONZALEZ" going down and "MEZA" accross. They'll cross at the "Z". I realize that this is uneven because "MEZA" is only 4 letters but hopefully with a little imagination I will be able to make it look alright. I'm thinking that the letters themselves will be the outline of the cross. So I will also need to work on that . We'll see if it ever happens.
"Though memories fade I got you name tattooed on my arm..."
Name that tune Diana
"Though memories fade I got you name tattooed on my arm..."
Name that tune Diana
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Be Thankful For What You Got
So my Wife has told me that it seems like I've been in a funk lately and I'm ready to admit that she is right....again. Can I blame it on the rain like Milli Vanilli? Tony Toni Tone Said it never rains in Southern California. The Mamas and The Papas said I'd be safe and warm if I was in L.A. I would have thought they were talking about Louisiana if they didn't say that during California Dreamin' ". Anyway let me get back to where I was going.
I've been paying too much attention to what and who I no longer have with me and instead I need to acknowledge the people I do have. I've got a better corner than Jessica Roberts in Pretty Woman. Wait that didn't sound right. Let me try it again. A better corner than Oscar De La Hoya. I'll explain 1. My Wife, my support, she's my biggest fan always behind me keeping me in line. She has stayed in my corner just like The Dells. 2. My dad gives the advise only a veteran can give 3. Finally my cut man Anthony. When I'm hurting, late into the fight his smile makes the pain go away. I love you all.
P.S. Sorry about all the song references.
I've been paying too much attention to what and who I no longer have with me and instead I need to acknowledge the people I do have. I've got a better corner than Jessica Roberts in Pretty Woman. Wait that didn't sound right. Let me try it again. A better corner than Oscar De La Hoya. I'll explain 1. My Wife, my support, she's my biggest fan always behind me keeping me in line. She has stayed in my corner just like The Dells. 2. My dad gives the advise only a veteran can give 3. Finally my cut man Anthony. When I'm hurting, late into the fight his smile makes the pain go away. I love you all.
P.S. Sorry about all the song references.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
"But I'm a champion...so I turn tragedy to triumph.
I didn't really want to go back to the last entry but one of my sisters' entries reminded me of someone who had high hopes for me. He was the next best thing to a father to me and at times he had to be. My Grandfather Ignacio Gonzalez or "Grandpa Chino" as everyone called him was a soft spoken guy and he was the one who held the family together and when he passed away, sure enough, the family fell apart.
So it got me thinking that just as my Grandpa believed in my potential and I believe in my sons', I need to teach him not to let it go to waste. I signed up for a business class at P.C.C. I run by there all the time and I actually used to make my way inside. It's been a while but it'll be good to be back. My goal is to get a degree in Accounting. We'll see how it goes. My youngest sister graduates soon. I am so proud of you Diana!
So it got me thinking that just as my Grandpa believed in my potential and I believe in my sons', I need to teach him not to let it go to waste. I signed up for a business class at P.C.C. I run by there all the time and I actually used to make my way inside. It's been a while but it'll be good to be back. My goal is to get a degree in Accounting. We'll see how it goes. My youngest sister graduates soon. I am so proud of you Diana!
From the time I was a kid, my Grandpa and I never told each other goodbye. We always said "Aye te watcho" which is slang for I'll see you later. I was holding his hand as he left this world to enter the next when I said it to him for the last time.
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